Obsessed

I sleep to your messages
and I wake up glowing from their memory
I drink chai and think of you
and smile my secret smile to my mother
who doesn't know it is you I'm happy with
we eat papayas and bananas in the morning
mellow sweet with evaporated milk
and I think of feeding it to you
in everything I do I think of you

waiting

Silence sits down like a corpse
My hair shivers
The sunlight woven in it
Dissipates
I do not look for you
I know that given patience
Enough time in absence
You will return

brave

you are
pure raw joy. You'd laugh at my dramatization
I laugh too. You make me feel
it is worth it to try
to work hard at something
to finish things despite tiredness
to display myself
like this

emoji

I know that it is better
not to speak to you now
when my mind is so preoccupied
tomorrow, perhaps
I wish finish some pending work
and then I will think of the right emoticon
to add to my 'How are you' to you

dawn

the silence woke me
at 4 am. My fingers stroked my back
as if a strangers
I blinked and lay there waiting, for someone
but, nothing

I rolled over and saw 2 hours had passed
In the quiet I turned to my faith
Wet hands wiped wet eyes. Wet lips prayed
and night broke open.

you are seen through all eyes
broken by all views
but right now you are here
and you have to do what you have to do

a hug

it is so easy to get a hug from you
I do not even look for it and then
your tall arms are around me
I am attached
to your thin frame